January 4th, 2006
|02:33 pm - wrap up of 2005|
I finally decided to write in this journal so here it goes for the wrap up.
Well I guess one thing I can say is that 2005 I am so glad you are over. The memories of the begining of this year can fry in hell, but I did enjoy the tail end of things. I am just looking forward to what 2006 has in hold.
Wasted way too much of my life with a complete asshole.
But inturn met the greatest man in the world.
Lost a lot of friends.
But inturn they were assholes and my new friends are amazing people.
Lived most of it in Kalamazoo...ick!
But I moved to Chicago and am soooooo much happier.
Worked in the land of under-paid and over-worked aka MC Sports.
But I now work at Urban Outfitters and love it.
Had the worst boss ever for way too long at MC Sports.
But my boss now is amazing...also my old boss got fired...hehehe.
Spend most of this year not in school which made me completely undriven.
But I started at the school, in September, I have always wanted to attend and doing very well.
Still have short black hair.
And ended the year with the man of my dreams. Happy New Year!
Current Mood: content finally
Current Music: Television behind me
October 12th, 2005
|10:15 pm - cruel cruel world|
It is hard to understand why people treat people the ways that they do. I just don't get it. I am who I am cause of what I have done and what I have not done. I don't want to regret, but I finally figured out that I do regret. This point stabbed me right in the heart. I can't avoid life though. I guess live it and be ok with it. End of story.
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: perfect drug...NIN
September 17th, 2005
|02:01 pm - Chicago how I love you!|
I guess it was disappointing to see how people have completely forgotten about me in Kalamazoo...but I guess fuck it. I love the people here. I haven't known such wonderful people till most of the moped people ditched me. I have no problem with anyone in this group I just was hurt by the way they let me fall. I love my boyfriend Justin and my friends that picked me up when I was thrown to the gutters. I love classes here. I love the city and everything about it here. I am sure I will love my job at Urban Outfitters, but my first day has not happened yet. I do sort of miss Kalamazoo...for a second that is. I am very excited because most of the people I truly care about are moving here. I do wish I could visit Krissy sometime soon. But someday, I will make sure of it.
Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: Rooney
August 23rd, 2005
|02:32 pm - Last few days in Kalamazoo....thank God!|
Well Kalamazoo was good....I guess...while it lasted. But thank God! I am so out of here! Chicago here I come.
Things I will miss
-My boyfriend, Justin
-My few actual friends
-Gettin drunk with Steph at Up and Under
-Looking at porn with Jen
-Hanging with Eric or RJ
-Laughing at the emo posers
Things I won't miss
-vegan freaks (hello meat is healthy)
-everyone and everything else
Chicago here I come!
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: Garbage (stupid girl)
August 8th, 2005
Current Mood: annoyed
March 5th, 2005
|10:08 am - Bills|
I forget how incredibly poor I am till it comes to paying bills and I realize I can't even pay my rent this month. I wish I hated my job more and I didn't just get a promotion cause I would just quit and find something in Kalamazoo. Damn you MC. Job searching may be my least favorite thing to do next to going to the woman doctor. It is stupid and long....then you have to learn about a new place all over again. I know MC like the back of my hand and I have almost made it a year there, so you know I might as well suck it up and stay. Speaking of rent and work, I have to go figure out a way to pay it, pay it and then go to work.
Current Mood: worried
February 26th, 2005
|08:54 am - Chicago|
All this talk about Chicago has me half worried and half excited as hell. I am so scared right now, I know I will love it but I am so used to living in Kalamazoo and knowing people everywhere I go....I just don't know. My bestfriend and my boyfriend will be a state away....not a whole state, but far enough away to make me sort of sad. I kind of like how my life is going right now, I don't want it to all fall apart when I move. I mean not to say I don't enjoy a change, we all know that would be a lie to say. But I like the people I decided to stay close with to be around me, not far away. Oh well I am sure this is just brainless chatter, but I guess it is how I feel.
Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Shins
February 20th, 2005
|09:53 am - X's|
So I am a total dick and missed the Edward concert. On top of that when I made it to the show I still was without a ID so I had to get the double X's on my hands. Not that I wanted to drink I just didn't really want 2 by 2 inch X's in sharpe marker on my hands for a week. Oh well I guess. I ran into a whole lot of people I haven't seen in forever! Went to the Edward place afterwords and had to bail about 10 minutes into it, I almost feel asleep.
Got to go fake shopping with Amber which I have to say is wayyyyy tooo much fun. I call it fake only cause I am broke as hell and can't actually buy anything. I miss my Amber and hanging out all the time. *sniffles* But she needs to study study study.....to get those grades she deserves. Love yeah pretty lady.
On a totally different note...I am not sure if I am lucky my mom is coming down to help me clean my apartment or kinda scared. My brother, for some ungodly reason, is coming over to help too. I think this no job for two weeks has gotten to his head. If you knew anything about my brother, you would know that this is just messed up having him want to help clean my place. Well I guess I should get going seeing that my mom will be at my place in no time and I am so not there right now.
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Shins
February 18th, 2005
|01:08 pm - Edward|
Yeah! The Edward show is tonight! Hope to see all the cool people there...hehe...Off to work then to Edward!
Man, it seems like forever since I have seen them.
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Edward of course
February 15th, 2005
|11:26 am - V-day|
Ok so I think I just entered the world of Girly girl. Damn you all that said I would like V-day when I had a man.
So yesterday was the horrible day known as Valentines Day. I have thought this was a stupid holiday for my entire life, but yesterday I actually got mad cause I didn't think Jordan wanted to hang out. He did want to hang out and all is good and all. But damn this holiday! I sucked it up and bought a card and chocolates. I am so girly now. I feel that I should just hand in my jeans and brown shirt and wear a pink and purple dress. It is days like this that make me remember how girly I really am. I did get the greatest thing for V-day though. Jordan made one of his upstairs rooms into an art studio for me, so I actually have room to work and I can be as messy as I like. *Giggles* Love you all.
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: girly music of course